Does your weight match your driver’s license?

Yep, add vulnerable too.

Yeah, mine did two years ago. I was actually honest with them, hiding from my then boyfriend, now husband, and whispering it to the DMV. I was MORTIFIED to find out I was in a state that puts your weight on the card! In my home state Michigan they DO NOT PUT YOUR WEIGHT on the card.

I am going to be honest.

I have been struggling sleeping ever since I posted my real weight on the blog-(essentially my lifelong struggle with weight-found here), then some how that little bit of honestly spurred me to put a picture of the scale after my month in Vegas –here. Why did I want to tell the random 100 people that subscribe to my blog my weight?  Well, while traveling home I watched a woman who had a seat belt extender make a fuss, and then a woman who had the extender and was still struggling to fit on the airplane. I became thankful to still fit in the regular seat belt *barely*- but I was still so unhappy. I listened to these women talk back and forth about how planes are getting smaller, why they think they should be in first class for free, and then watched them pound their meal, and 5 cans of regular soda. I watched other skinny girls look at these women and mock them, laugh behind them, and overall be awful to these overweight women.

To be clear I am not judging them, I felt like that was like looking in on myself, and it was ugly. It made me wonder if that is why all those reps at Mr Olympia (read my post here) avoided giving me their samples. If they just saw a irresponsible fat person, who just has no self control, or whatever.

So what does this have to do admitting my weight?

Honestly, it is kind of like AA in the way – Admitting there is a problem is the first step. (or something like that!) I have been in denial of my weight for a long time. I have my Hashimoto’s I blame it on, a hypothyroid autoimmune disease. I have blamed having poly cystic ovary syndrome since I was in high school. I just blame, and ignore, repeat.

To be honest, it was hard to admit what was real.

It made me realize this is serious. I have been “on my fitness journey” my whole life, recently I started last year when I trained for the Princess Half marathon at Disney. I do not have some wild amazing before an after picture for you, I had fallen face first off the cliff( *ahem* gained weight, gained weight, gained weight) So for me as terrifying as this all was. This is the situation, this is serious, and putting it out there made something just click. I have been inspired by bloggers with weekly weigh-ins, meal recaps ( healthy!), workout plans, and/or workout recaps. So in hopes of having a healthy lifestyle before we start a family, this is the step I took. Interested in my inspiration- Just click on the Blog name, The Final Forty, Meals and Miles, Frugal Beautiful, and Runs for Cookies.

 HONEST BOOTCAMP UPDATE! – So, we did a fitness test day one and I was a little sore all over-  I did 11 push ups, 9 sit-ups, and ran the mile in 13:13. I did not even care about my before stats, I just knew today’s bootcamp was going to HURT! I mean, we hardly did anything yesterday.

• I was sore and in pain all over in 20 minutes, class is an hour long.
• 100’s of push ups, sit-ups, crazy things running on the foot ball field squat jumps, ladders, running around the track with that follow the leader run to the front thing, I am still reeling how it was male push-ups not girls for most of it, planks.
• I learned: Do not stop moving after class, just don’t.
• Also, do not go to the grocery story sweaty. I smelled, and it offended people. (I really needed MILK!)
• Maybe, do go to the grocery store. I bought some really healthy amazing things! It also kept me walking. (I am currently updating from my phone as I walk at 18 minute mile pace around base finishing my mileage.)

FOOD! I made a bunch of gluten-free Quinoa, I put some in some broth, added some chicken I got from Sams club (Thank you Sams club for the free admission while the commissary is closed!) added a few frozen veggies, and it made a ton of soup! I also have two mason jars of single servings of quinoa for if I want to toss some on a salad, or in breakfast without having to cook more 🙂 I plan on making my favorite quinoa basil/tomato bake as soon as the commissary opens. Recipe and pictures to follow when I do!

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