I hope you had a wonderful NYE! This is not a resolution/goals post in some ways, yet it is. I am just excited 2014 is HERE!. It is all one more step closer to my husband returning HOME! I still do not have a date of his return, and that kills be because I would love a count down right about now, but I will just settle and be happy for the new year starting.
Getting into the flow of things, I did a photo review of my BIG 2013 – a wedding, Vegas, Us Virgin Islands, oh my- it was a HUGE year for me over here.
There is one thing I did not talk about..
I quit my job.
I quit my job of 1.5 years, first out of college, first “big girl job” of being a mental health caseworker for children with chronic mental illnesses, and their families. I loved parts of that job, and I miss my co workers.
It was a 25,000 a year, working till 9pm at my clients homes, 7 days a week ( being paid for 5 people), job with little support from my company. I won’t lie. Although I work occasionally as a nanny, being jobless gives me nightmares – Still. I still worry about old clients, and yep- Have nightmares about all the terrible things I was witness to on the job.
I was so stubborn in having a job, I refused to quit a job I could not detach myself from. So I have been trying to figure myself, and this out for a LONG time.
I do apply for jobs. BUT living in the middle of nowhere, driving 1.5 hours to work and 1.5 home may kill my little 98 Ford Contour.. no it
As I make my vision board I realize more and more of the pictures are me back in an office, or school. I hope to find a career or job that still has the parts I love, without all the emotional drain. Or I would do the same job, just not with kids. I love kids, and I couldn’t help them in ways I wanted to.
All that aside.
I am watching Michigan State University band pass by on the Rose Bowl parade and feel two things. ( Please cheer for my Spartans today 😉 )
- I really wish I was there with all my college friends. Or just by myself. I was born the last Rose Bowl year for MSU. It has been too long!
- How am I making my University Degree’s proud?
I have two degree’s and I am a housewife to a cat, occasional Nanny, and overall lost in what to do.
I applied to McDonald’s near me because I was sick of not working, guess what they said no!
Now, this is a sad sad world when McDonald’s tells someone with two Bachelors of Science and Minor “no”. I mean I was not asking to be a manager. I was only asking to work part time to earn money. Because HEY! sitting on the couch is not paying any bills. I have an excellent job history as I have been working since my junior year in High School, no terminations, and glowing reviews. I worked 3 jobs in college, while being a college athlete too..
About that time I totally stopped applying to jobs, and lost all hope for humanity. Ok, not quite, but I was ready to jump back into the same job I quit because I was so desperate to be working again, and knew they would take me back ( and were hiring.. as usual.. *cough cough* ) My Husband is the one that said no to that. Not only was the job emotional for me, I had some pretty scary things happen to me and we just decided to live paycheck to paycheck.
Wrapping up my rambling.
I decided not to make goals, or resolutions. I then found out today my plan is not unique, and most people are picking a “theme” or word to follow or adhere to all year.
I had to laugh at myself.
Anyways, I picked out a word that I feel will carry me through any ups or downs of the year.
No, not Garmin. Although.. haha just kidding! Persevere.
I used to be this over-achieving ,hard working, dreaming of big things kind of girl. I think disappointments and failures have dampened that drive, but has not gone anywhere. I want to take 2014 and never give up on things I want. I want to regain my momentum in life. I will persevere in finding where I should be, wherever that may be.
This also ties over to starting a family. I already know it may be hard for us to have kids of our own, and I am prepared for that. I will persevere in following my doctors directives, and working on it with all my heart.
I will persevere in my little and big goals, and mainly just be happy in 2014. I am not holding myself to any big goal, but I plan to set little monthly ones as this has been fun and helpful in being more productive.