So I will admit. I took a new position and now I work about 60-70 hours a week. It isn’t pretty, and I feel the burnout starting in.
I will not lie I have not been living a life outside of work, and there isn’t much I can really divulge here about work.. So it leaves nothing to talk about. But, I need this little blog space, and I’ve missed it.
So bulletin updates:
-I’ve lost 21 pounds! ( and have not gained it back)
-New position started in 2015 (yay promotion)
-I had a great short few days at home for Christmas with my husband !
It feels like I started this job in August and went so fast and hard to make up for the year and a half of unemployment that I went through. I love being employed and I mostly love my job. It’s rewarding but I’m finding I need to set more boundaries to curb how many hours I work a week because I never see my husband. Which poses a few problems, but mainly stops our plans of fertility treatments because.. Well it takes two and we are never home.
It’s sad to look back and be like if I just would have said no I wouldn’t have worked so much and insert regret here.
My day looks kinda like this on average.( weekends currently included )
4am: crap, alarm already
440am: ahhh get in the car!!
530am: punch in. Read emails till caffeine kicks in.
6am : Chaos until ….
230pm : yes one hour to go!!
235pm : some emergency or a call in. Damn. yes I can only stay till 5pm.
545pm: get in car and drive fast home. ring crap I’m coming back hold on.
… You get the picture
730pm : pass out on couch at home
Repeat 6-7 days a week.
I need a vacation.
As far as the weight loss.
I’m still working on intuitive eating. I have fast food 5 times a week and limit nothing food wise- outside of portion control. I’m losing about 2lbs a week with no regain so I’m happy.
I’m sure if I exercised or stopped my fast food and soda stops I could lose more a week … But frankly I just don’t care.
I need soda. I don’t like coffee and no matter how much sleep I try to get there are days a soda will be needed.
I honestly think taking the pressure off of focusing on only healthy foods and losing weight has been the difference. I’m eating when I’m hungry, and although some choices may be frowned at by others. I’ve dropped from a 24 to an 18….I kinda don’t care 😉
I have much more to talk about but have to go into work today so, it’s bye for now. I’ve missed this space and hope to find time to reconnect with everyone!
I plan on updating you on our goal for last year as a couple.
I need to develop and make goals for 2015
And I want to follow up on my infertility post and answer some questions I received a while back.