Ah. I never felt I would ever confess my weight to ANYONE. This has been sitting in my drafts for so long. I kept my husband in the dark, until a few days ago. I was struggling with getting my rings off, and fearful I had yet again gained weight while on my weight loss journey.
I am traveling home today using my phone to update, so I hope everything comes out alright.
My weight loss story Abridged, and ADD.
I have not had a scale since I left for Vegas..a month without a check in is scary. Seeing as before we left I weighed 278. I did gain the weight I initially lost back in the spring after the wedding was over.
So, hello 27 lbs, what did I do too welcome you back? Oh, I started working out more?? Ugh.
I showed a few pictures, these pictures to be exact.
To my husband and asked how much he thought I weighed in it.
I weighed 220.
My heaviest in college was 225,
lowest even as a collegiate athlete – 205.
I do consider my self tall, and I have always felt I hid the weight with my style and ability to shift for a pic.
Even in high school, I weighed around 170. Size small sized 6-8 pants.
I mean at 205 I wore a size 10, and medium shirts. I couldn’t lose the weight regardless of nutrition, excercise, and this is with the help of trainers and nutritionists. So I just said I am just muscled, big boned, and made sure to tell my self it was ok as I couldn’t help it. I felt hey- I don’t feel obese, I work out, no one knows I weigh this much. ( well now you all do )
Now, I leave for home and will weigh in to make up for missed day in the challenge. I feel nervous. My rings have been tougher to get off at night, and that has never happened before. Clothes feel normal, but hey ..I can’t shake the feeling that scale is going to smack me in the face.
I mean, if you look at my Instagram you can see all the food. Vegas was food.
I am so ready to start boot camp class on Monday. I can’t afford a personal trainer, but a small class that meets 4 hours a week for six weeks. Well you better believe It is worth using some Vegas winnings on it. Budget friendly compared to a trainer.
I have a desire to be healthy. It isn’t the weight to me, it is the food is my addiction/reward/happy place etc. I want to be healthy all around but habits are going to be what our future family will learn. If I don’t adopt healthy habits now, how will I raise healthy kids?
So before I left for a month in sin city, here are my stats
My rings fit!
So what does this have to do with living every day like he deploys tomorrow?
Living healthy is living fully. I wil hopefully not only live longer -but better. I will be everything for our kids. Living everyday like he deploys tomorrow just means making the most of every ordinary day.
So here is to open honest blogging and my journey 🙂 I figured this is as good as it can get as a check in. Reality check. Check out when I started my journey of 30 days to healthy habits here. The event that unknowingly (now known) spurred me to kick it into high gear, aka my fears of gyms/fitness came true – here.
Ps. I am loving LAS having free airport wi-fi!! I hope you will follow along in my journey, and I love comments! Let me know if you are on a journey and well, and point me to where I can help motivate you as well!