I feel like this post is a housekeeping post, write everything that doesn’t fit in its own post and clean up my thoughts. Also, it is a random line from Harry Potter movies that makes me giggle every time. Yes, even if it is the millionth time I am watching it. I was super sick the last couple days and had a lot of time to lay in bed and think. Over thinking is kind of my thing, so I could have been healthy and still come up with this list.
Yay list !
I won last months DietBet! EEEK! Yay $36 bucks in my pocket. 12 lbs gone. Not to late to join the $10 bet one here.
I am getting my hair done today! It has only been 2.5 months…
Today is National Running Day! Check out Women’s Running Magazine is holding a sale today for $1 an issue! HERE
I have been fighting going to the doctor to get a few suspicious sun spots checked out and finally did it.
Not so Yay List
I am now worried I can not make the 4% on my diet bets.
My walking cast is annoying in this summer heat.
I almost took scissors to my hair it was so dreaded/tangled/humidity wrecked
I have to get a few suspicious spots removed and checked for skin cancer! Boo.
My PCOS symptoms are going insane, so that’s fun.. .
I was trying to keep my not so great list shorter than my YAY! list but it was a struggle. I feel stuck! The boot is definitely a part of that, but a few others things as well.
I decided this morning I was going to do another Advocare Cleanse, let me know if you want to join me! I felt amazing after the cleanse and lost 7 pounds or so last time in 10 days so I am thinking this might be the jump my body needs for DietBets round two.
Speaking of PCOS
My PCOS symptoms tend to bother me more after a doctors visit because if it is a different doctor than my usual? He just tells me to lose weight. Hello, Dude? I have been 140 lbs and dealing with all the same symptoms I am showing you now. . . So … yeah. Your story? I find it to be crap!! It just frustrates me to no end.
Some of the PCOS symptoms listed on WebMD:
– Body Acne- with a vengeance. Something I used to tan away through High School and college- Now I am covered in freckles and moles that were never there – also now some are suspicious!! Regret- tanning non regret- my skin looked great then. regret- Now I am going to be wrinkled!
– Face Acne- blah. Running out of makeup to cover this craziness.
-Hair growth- On my chest, stomach, face- I am so sick of waxing/plucking etc. because it causes more BREAKOUTS
-Hair loss. It has started again but not as bad as before. *fingers crossed* it is just a summer shed or something.
– High blood pressure- Check.
– Crazy messed up “time of the month” – if it ever comes. Or that one time my husband was deployed and I had a “period” for 75% of the time he was gone with no medical explanations.
-Infertility
– weight gain
-trouble losing weight
-insulin resistant
So Yeah. I like my normal doctor who doesn’t look at all of my concerns and go- hmm, just lose weight and it will all get better.
It has really been weighing on my mind for almost 8 months when I had to stop a medication that was controlling all of my symptoms pretty great. ( I didn’t know that it was until a few months ago when all the symptoms came back strong, now I miss it!!) I have started a different medication that has less side effects, but it so far has not given me any benefits which bums me out. I wish I didn’t have to be on any medication but if I could I would love to get back in Aldactone in a second. I am not good at pushing the doctors for “more”, but I am almost ready to ask for a specialists opinion. I am not blaming my weight gain/loss on PCOS at all, I think I could actually get over most of this nonsense if it was not for the hair growth. I have been in tears with my husband multiple times since he has been home: sobbing over how I do not feel like a girl due to all the masculine hair growth, and how it feels like a physical reminder of fertility issues. It feels like a losing battle, and not one I can compete in very well.
sigh.
Maybe while I am getting my full body mole check and removal this week I will find the nerve to ask for a referral to a specialist ….. ha-ha. I joke, but I may be kind of serious…
Anyways, super personal blog post came out of something I was intending to be random, short and sweet! Eek! Thanks for hanging in there <3
When my PCOS was raging, I found a fantastic specialist who helped me a lot. She put me on metformin, fish oil (blehhhh, but it worked) and overall just KNEW what she was doing and what I was going through. Big hugs, chica. I know how much PCOS can suck.
Thank you, thank you it means so much! I am so limited because of Military insurance ( I am not complaining because it was better than when I didn’t have any.. ) So I always feel it is a struggle to get care. I am so happy to hear you had success.
((HUGS))