Anyone know exactly what they wanted to be? Do it? And still doing it now?
I still feel like I am still that college student who has no idea, sitting down telling my guidance counselor – “I just want to work with people.”
In what capacity I could never tell her.
Growing up in a corn field, working on the farm, participating in every facet of the local 4-H – I had dreams of being a metropolitan doctor away from small town life. Before that, it was an artist, but I honestly lack all artistic skill, so that was never an option. I just wanted off the farm.
I was always determined to win, do my best, and succeed. To me, that meant at the time getting out and as far away from home as possible.
Oh, I was in SUCH a hurry. I even skipped the chance for Disney College Progam because it would extend college for me.
I didn’t end up too far from home for college, and I did put my head down and focus all my attention on getting into medical school.
I had been taking different classes from almost every college at Michigan State University.
From Agribusiness to Biochemistry. I had to figure out how to mush all these classes into a degree, then find a degree that would translate into a job.
I was in such a hurry to get a job and finish school I missed out on exploring other options that actually might have suited me better.
Interviewing after college was rough on my confidence. If I got interviews, they were slim and not using my degrees.
I had one interview and offered a position from a great insurance agency in East Lansing. It just didn’t feel right, and as much as I wanted to stay living close to Michigan State, I moved home anyways.
I decided I wanted to work in the social work field. I wanted to help others, and I was certain and hopeful.
First interview. I knew before leaving the office I had the job, and I felt successful again. I NAILED it, not even knowing what to say, just being who I was true- I walked away from one of the only interviews after college feeling like this was my calling. Problem?
It was states away from all my family and friends and 25k a year. Yeah. I took it anyways. To sum it up: I slept on an air mattress, did not have cable or the internet, and worked a minimum of 25 hours unpaid overtime a week.
Working in the mental health field chewed me up and spit me out.
It truly isn’t that way everywhere, and I took a break between this first job and ended up finding a fabulous job working at a great company serving those with Developmental Disabilities.
If we had not received military orders as soon as getting pregnant, I would have likely struggled with the debate of going back to work or staying home. The decision to stay home in our new state across the country was easy once we struggled with some health issues his first year as well.
So, I am a stay at home mom, who loves it 98% of the time.
We are entering the fun tantrum stage- and some days I think going back to work is JUST what we both need.
Honestly, if day care was not so expensive? I would jump on getting to work part time. It seems the perfect balance of contributing to our financial needs, helping better prepare for our child’s future, and not to mention day care socialization skills. I wish we didn’t live across the country; I know a few grandparents who would love to watch this little guy.. 😉
So there it is. My current confusion of do I try to go back to work? Where do I work? Why don’t I know what I want to be, yet?
Do you have a job you love? Do you want to change careers? Are you a Stay-at-home-mom who is struggling, or loving it? Share with me, I would love to hear your story.